The month our dream of a cabin realized
The month my dream of a master's degree materialized
The month my dream of a kind heart imagined and collapsed
In hindsight, setting such a lofty goal of performing all of my actions with kindness during the month filled with the most (albeit positive and happy) stress was unwise and doomed from the start.
I had the worst parenting moment of my life--a moment that, when I watch that DVD in the sky, I will hide my eyes and beg for forgiveness and a merciful fast forward. Not all moments can be Parents magazine-worthy, and my expectations of such disappeared years ago, but I cringe when I think how far I fell from that kindness goal.
Since, I have been much better. Much calmer. Much kinder.
And May 2015 stretches before me.
The month we will retreat to the cabin whenever possible
The month I will walk a commencement
The month I will refocus my heart on kindness
And reap the blessings of forgiveness and second chances.